Oh what a fantastic time I have had at the Glastonbury Goddess Conference! It was lush! Seeing old friends and making new ones, reconnecting with the Land, deepening my connection to the Lady of Avalon, spending time with priestess sisters, sharing the magic and the wonder of the Conference with my family, exhibiting my paintings at the fabulous In Her Image art exhibition, selling cards and keyrings at the temple stall, dancing, doing ceremony, enjoying talks and workshops, walking the land and breathing in Her inspiration and the deep warm golden love of the Mother...
I have discovered beautiful artwork of Goddess artists I hadn't known before and have been inspired to many many paintings to share the mystery and the beauty of the Lady of Avalon and of the Isle of Apples. They are all in my head, at the moment it is just beautiful in there!
Coming home I feel full of energy and inspiration, and I can't wait to manifest all my beautiful ideas, to continue working with all I've been given during the conference and to process all the insights I've had.
One thing that has become clear is that it is time for me now to allow abundance to have a place in my life. I have never been so aware of how much I have in my life: an abundance of love, of shiny things to make my home beautiful and to create an altar of gratitude and of glorious celebration for the Lady, an abundance of friends and sisters and of inspiration. I am so blessed I even have an abundance of talents – I am not the greatest artist in the world or the best singer, but I can paint well enough and write and compose chants to celebrate the Goddess's wondrous creation and I can create ceremonies, circles and workshops to honour Her, and I can be filled with joy and Her loving energy while I do it, how wonderful is that! I have an abundance of time to spend with my beautiful beautiful fairy child and my wonderful partner and to do the work that I love: all the work that has to do with Avalon Paintings (the actual painting, but also writing the blog, maintaining the website, designing and ordering cards to be printed... actually I am very dependent on my dear friend Dana and my lovely partner because I don't know how to layout and design anything on the computer, so they are incredibly selfless and supportive → deep gratitude for the abundance of love in my life – but I'd love to learn how to do it myself, so I can play around with my paintings as well... manifesting new projects, preparing exhibitions... how blessed am I to be doing such exciting work!!!), to study the Goddess and to write about Her and about other things that I enjoy.
Financially I can't say that I have an abundance of money. I have all that I need and even more but I am not independent. I am lucky to be in a place where I people who love me help out financially so that I can look after my family and live the creative life I have always dreamed of. But I often don't feel good about myself, like I'm a failure, becaue I depend on others. And there are things I'd like to learn, courses I'd like to do and places I'd like to travel, and that I cannot afford. I feel greedy when I say this, like I shouldn't be wanting more. But my very wise friend, the beautiful Charis, once adviced me to never use or think the word „should“. So I'm speaking my truth and calling in that abundance: Great Abundant Mother, bless the fruits of my hard work and bring me a rich harvest! Calling you in Ker, Rosmerta, Caiva, Abundantia and Lakshmi, to bless me and allow me to expand, to grow and to unfold further. Until then I thank you for the help that I am getting and I pray to you to help me learn to accept that help without feeling bad. Help me to see the love that makes people help me out. Let me be aware that I am rich because of this friendships, not because of the financial part because of the love. I offer you my gratitude for this flow of positive energy into my life and I let go of the negative view of myself.
Since this the Mother Year and in the Wheel of the Year the season of the Mother I now make a promise: I will spend the next 12 months focussing on the positive, on the abundance that is, on the beauty, the creativity, the joy and the love, and will bring all this into my projects. With prayers to the Mother Goddess, Louise L. Hay's affirmations, with meditations and with practical steps I will call in the abundance that I am now ready to receive. I open my heart and soul to you, Lady of Avalon, to listen to your guidance and walk the path of my own truth and my own joy, aware of how blssed I am to be in a position where I am able to do so, embracing all your beautiful opportunities, gifts and possibilities.
Then when we approach the Conference of the Mother of Earth next year, the Goddess of Manifestation and Harvest, I will have created more riches and hopefully the abundance that was missing will be one of them. In any case I will have even more to be grateful for! Hoorah!