I am very excited and happy to present my new painting Sacred Isle. This is a painting that has been in the making for 8 years, and during this time it has gone through some changes.
First of all you need to know that I have never been to Arts School. My story of painting is one of low self-esteem, doubt and negative beliefs. I used to enjoy it as a child, being told that I was talented by my dear mum and also being encouraged. But something still went wrong and I developped the belief that I was a useless painter. Within 5 years, between 19 and 24, I painted exactly ONE painting, which I remember as not being very good. I do not know what went wrong and luckily it doesn't matter anymore. Because what happend was that I went to my first Goddess Conference in 2004 and it changed my life. I came back home and I started to paint again. This was one of the paintings I started between the Conference in August and the beginning of my Priestess training in November. It included the sky, the water, the Island and the Goddess's face, but the Island and the Goddess looked very different.
I then put the painting away, waiting. I knew it wasn't finished, I knew there were more details to dream up. But they didn't come to me.
The way I paint is that I never push it. I have a vague idea of what is going to be in the painting, but I leave the rest to the Lady. I often say that I paint Goddesses and they know what they want to look like and what they want in the painting with them.
So for 8 years not much happened with the painting. A few times I thought that I maybe should throw it away, but I felt no, this painting would come in time.
And then everything happened rather fast. In Spring this year I felt that the face of the Goddess needed to change and I thought that the painting was going to be of the Lady of Avalon. If you browse through my Goddess Galleries you'll notice that I havn't painted the Lady yet.
I didn't have the painting in my house until July and then I was very busy with the Glastonbury Goddess Conference, the exhibition in Berlin, with family life and with holidays (yay!), so it was only about three week's ago that I started working on the painting which I still believed to become a painting called "Lady of Avalon". It was while I was working on the face of the Lady, and she came through rather clearly and quickly, that I heard of the passing of Koko. And I knew that this painting wasn't to be focussing on the Goddess only, but that the Isle of Avalon in it was a feature as important. Kathy then said Koko was sailing to the Sacred Isle and I knew this was the title of my painting.
So the day I learned of Koko's passing I lit a candle for her and worked all day on the painting, except for when I took my daughter to the park where we did a little ceremony for Koko. Then again I didn't find time to paint for a few days and then I got ill. So I continued painting the day of Koko's wake and her funeral, candle lit, always connected to Avalon and my community of priestess sisters and brothers there. I finished the painting and it is dedicated to Koko.
This morning the painting had a little accident including some candle wax and I had to repaint the Goddess's face... I wonder if this is the end of this painting's story or if it will change further. But for the moment, this is it. This is my painting Sacred Isle.
In memoriam Koko Newport.
With love x